Day 21 on Atkins 20

I had a good day today staying on plan. We hit 110 degrees today so drinking enough water wasn't a problem. I probably drank 1 1/2 times what I normally do. I have been looking for a good weight loss group to join and haven't found any to my liking. I have begun frequenting the Atkins board right on their site and while they do have a fair amount of traffic, they're not exactly what I am looking for. What I want is a small group of buddies who I report to and who report to me. We'll encourage each other, help answer questions and generally just be a support system through this. I'm sure I'll find this eventually but there isn't anything like it that I've found yet.

Tomorrow is weigh in and measurement day and I know I shouldn't get my hopes up but I can't help it. I want to know where I am at and yet I am dreading it as well. What if I am the same weight? Or worse, what if I gained a pound or two. I also feel so bloated and large when I actually step on that scale, like I am my fattest self at that moment. There is no hiding from that number. Yet I do know better. This is the first time I have ever waited to weigh. Usually I would do it daily exulting on my good days and hitting the lowest of lows on my bad days. I know I shouldn't do this but that's what I do. Now I am experiencing the same things except I just do it once a week now. I have to admit I will be more depressed if I've waited a whole week just to find out nothing good happened. How do I get out of this mindset? That's what I need a support group for. To talk me off the ledge when my numbers suck. Writing this blog does help, even if nobody sees it.

Day 21 meals:

Breakfast - 2 eggs scrambled, 2 pieces of bacon

Lunch - 6 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup sauteed zucchini, 1 cup salad w/romaine lettuce, shopped cucumbers, tomatoes and cheddar cheese topped with buttermilk ranch

Dinner - 2 bratwurst, 2 TBS low carb ketchup

Snacks - AM - Atkins cookies and cream shake, PM - Atkins cookies and cream shake

Total counts for day 21, 16g Carbs, 1527 Calories, 103g fat, 112g protein

Came in a little low on carbs and calories but I didn't feel like shoving anything more into me so I just left it there. This is my 3 week mark, I am down at least 15 lbs and feeling good, no matter what the scale says tomorrow, I am happy. Yes, I'll keep repeating that over and over until I believe it.